Soooo....I have for years thought about starting a blog.  Not until recently have I decided that I'm not letting anything hold me back...from anything!  So this is just one of the many things that I have said I am going to do, and I'm going to do it!  It's probably for more of my own benefit than anyone else's but I am feeling the need to get things out and on paper...err...online?!?!

Recently, I have been feeling a HUGE nudge from God to take a different path in my life.  Life has been dealing me a lot, and when I say a lot, I mean A LOT, of challenges lately and I am not sure that I have made the best choices on how I have dealt with them.  I am feeling quite emotional, and I start crying every time I start to think or talk about it, but I truly believe that is God's way of hitting me over the head like "DUH"!!!  I'm hoping that this blog will be a reminder to myself of this and start on the path of self healing and positive change.  I know my own selfishness, not anyone holding me back, has kept me from making these changes in my life.  There are a lot of things that I want to do for not just me but for my family.  Make ME a better person and I believe I can be a better mom and wife.  Now, I don't think I am a bad mom or wife but I know there is room for improvement.  I think a lot of people think that way, I hope I'm not the only one!  I hope that maybe I can help other people who think the same way that I am and make changes as well!

So..to start this blog off I am going to make a list of things that are my goals for what I want to happen in 2011 in my life!  Hopefully with Gods guidance, lots of prayer and the support of family and friends 2011 can be the best year yet!

MY GOALS FOR 2011

1 - become a fully devoted follower of Christ
2 - lead my children as well as others to become fully devoted followers of Christ
3 - heal my marriage
4 - give back to the community
5 - become a better friend and sister
6 - dedicate myself to becoming healthier and making healthier choices
7 - involving myself as much as possible in our Church

I'm sure there will be more added as time goes on!!  But...anyway...that's a start!!

So for now I leave you with this - this is who I am, this is my ride!  I hope you can benefit through my Journey in finding my self, my faith and my future!  It may not make sense sometimes....but hey...it's my thoughts and my blog!  hehe!!

Love to all!